


This Time

by Faramirlover



Category: Queer as Folk
Genre: Hurt-Comfort, Romance
Language: English
Status: Completed
Published: 2010-10-20
Updated: 2010-10-20
Packaged: 2014-06-06 09:20:24
Rating: T
Chapters: 1
Words: 507
Publisher: www.fanfiction.net
Story URL: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/6413097/1/
Author URL: https://www.fanfiction.net/u/983362/Faramirlover
Summary: Brian needs him to know that this time, the most important time, Justin's got it all wrong. Rated for language. BrianxJustin.





	This Time

**A/N: **A little piece on how Brian really feels about Justin changing his mind about the wedding. Came about because I'm very ill and ended up watching a QAF vid about the end of series 5.

**Disclaimer: **Don't own anything. If I did series 5 would have ended very differently.

**Dedication:** For Dark Knight Harkness, who always help me with my plot bunnies.

**Word Count: **381

**This Time**

He wants to tell him, wants to scream and kick and cry at him. He needs him to know that this time, the most important fucking time, Justin's got it all wrong. His blonde angel thinks he's got it all sussed. That he's the only one in this relationship that understands what it is to be in love. That Brian's playing a game, giving Justin what he wants, to make him stay, rather than finally giving in to what _he_ wants. What he truly needs.

But he doesn't. He lets the love of his life walk away. Gives him soft encouraging smiles as he tells their friends that there is no wedding. Looks ashamed as Justin rants about how he's changing from the man he used to be. Let's him assume that he's right. That this is all faked and they'll never be happy like this. Let's him believe the worst.

Doesn't Justin realise that he's not faking, that this change is real? That, yes, Justin has changed him but it's for the better. That he's been turned into the man that he always truly wanted to be but had never found the way before. That now he's acting like Justin's perfect man but not because that's what Justin wants but it's because that's what he wants, who he really is.

He's still the same egocentric, self centred, sex obsessed dick that he's always been but with a few good bits thrown into the mix. And he's happy about it! Why can't Justin see that?

But he can't tell him. Can't explain how he's feeling. Doesn't dare. Because now he has these feelings he's scared, scared of being rejected, scared of losing the most important person in his life, scared of being hurt, scared of turning back into the man he was before, scared of being alone.

So Justin is right in a way. He is faking. He is pretending to be someone he's not, for Justin's sake. But it's the man who lets him leave that's not real. It's Brian Kinney, fuck master extraordinaire that's not real anymore. Inside he's the one that wants to cuddle. The one who's waiting for the love of his life to come home so they can try again and get it right this time.

**OOOOOO**

**A/N: **Not so sure about how this one turned out. Reviews (including constructive criticism) are very welcome.


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